The Last Crush of My Life

Did I already say you were more than a crush?

I was awestruck when I first saw you blush.

Vivaciously I fell head over heels and got adrenaline rush.

Your ‘no degree’ eye deflection towards anyone put my feelings in flush.

Actually, from the first, I was aware that you were plush.

Did I ever ask you to call?

It has not been so rare that I fall.

Very closely I have observed you, doll.

You sure you never noticed me a small?

Actually, I had no intention to cross the wall.

Did you know how much I liked you?

I am so sure about the number of gums you chew.

Vast lifestyle differences were one of the answers, it’s true.

You sure you never found a single minute to get my good view?

Actually, I know I did everything to get to you but got a sad Phewwwww.

Did I mention that I lost my self-esteem?

I wish I could talk to you as it was my dream.

Very rapidly, that beautiful dream turned into a daydream.

Your ‘I don’t give a F***’ attitude switched my fantasy to a sad theme.

Actually, it all happened for a reason before I could reach an extreme.

Did I tell you I wanted to confess your name so badly?

I could have broadcasted it on TV, Radio, and YouTube abruptly.

Very sincerely, I tried to get a good morning glance of yours daily.

Your ‘I am not looking at anyone’ omen hinted me to stop sadly.

Actually, I wish you could know how at the very first sight, I fell for you truly & madly.

Did I tell you they warned me that looks are deceiving?

I always unheard them as I felt some beautifully hidden meaning.

Very good, was never a compliment as I failed every time in pleasing.

Your ‘I can never be impressed by you’ gave me a disheartening screaming.

Actually, it all starts with the ravishing looks and ends with books, unceasing.

PS- Though I was ahead of her in the race of alphabets, I lost to her in the race of love.

What is the meaning of UnProposed? Who is Unproposed?

When I had started writing on Medium.com, everyone asked me about the description of ‘The Unproposed Guy‘. It is as:

Excerpts of all the failed so-close eye contacts with the beautiful girls I met and nearly all the Flopped ‘Love at First Sight’ moments, explained plainly.

The message is clear but the name isn’t. Actually, in the English dictionary, there isn’t any real meaning of ‘Unproposed’ but as ‘Un’ suggests the contradiction or the opposite, the clear and obvious meaning of Unproposed becomes similar as:

The one who has not been proposed by same or opposite gender. Unproposed is an antonym of the word ‘Proposed’.  Here, the definition of the word ‘Unproposed’ is nothing but every lame guy or girl who has not been blessed with the appealing personality that they can’t or have failed to attract a single person in their life. Sad, but true!

Thus, logically, the meaning of #Unproposed is the exact opposite of #Proposed

Who is an Unproposed Guy?

A guy who has not been proposed by same (lol) or opposite gender. Here, the irony of the word lies in the eccentricity of it. Unproposed doesn’t at all mean he is ugly, lame, weak, or dumb. It’s just that he has not been into the focus or anyway the radius of girls’ retina.  A pessimist would say it’s all about luck :(, not me – I am a realist.

Here is how the profile (humor, totally) would look like if the hypothetical and ideal Unproposed Guy existed:

www.medium.com/@unproposedguy

Excerpts of all the failed so-close eye contacts with the beautiful girls I met and nearly all the Flopped ‘Love at First Sight’ moments, explained plainly.

Does this bio sound familiar?

It does – to me and to many millions across the world. Hehehe.

A STUPID SECOND CHANCE

Something was not right that night… I had a bad dream.

And when I woke up, my thoughts suddenly turned to her. Was she happy? I went about my monotonous existence. I got up, had my bath, dressed up for office. Work held no appeal to me anymore. My friends could not see me in that state any longer. They decided it was time for me to buckle up – to come to terms with reality. They knew I was still blaming myself for my breakup with her.

How could I not! My striving towards perfection drove her away from me. I did not realize I scared her with my hunger to things the right way always. I wanted to be the ideal boyfriend, and with time, the ideal husband. But let us face it… even Plato’s Republic failed to become reality. I should not have forgotten that “To err is Human.” With such thoughts crowding my mind every hour, minute and second of my existence, I was bound to end up in depression.

I failed to forgive myself. I failed to love her like a human should – was all I could think of. I had completely forgotten it was my birthday that day. But my friends did not. They took me for a treat later that evening to my ‘once’ favorite restaurant – the one I used to take her too very frequently. Little did I know what was in store for me… as soon as I entered the restaurant with my friends, the ground gave way beneath my feet. My head was in a spin.

She was standing in front of me. After staring for a few seconds, she came running towards me in tears. Apparently, her boyfriend was abusive. He would beat her up and also her dog. The poor dog died a few days ago. My friends came to know of the incident and invited her to my birthday party hoping for a turn in our story.

I realized what God had done that day. He gave me a Second Chance! A second chance to make things right… to start a new life. And suddenly, I became ME again. I felt it. She felt it too. And just like that, our story started again. And this time with my friends and our families in the picture too. Soon we fell in love all over again with our Perfect Imperfections. She was my finishing piece to the Jigsaw of My Life.

After a year, we got married, adopted a dog, and had a baby girl.

I felt I was the happiest and the luckiest person alive. I had a loving wife and daughter, supportive friends and family, a great job with an adorable dog – what more could I ask for! The day of our daughter’s first birthday was nearing. Seventeen days to go exactly…

She was out shopping for the big party we were planning to throw. I was at the office. Suddenly I got a call from the hospital. A truck hit her car and she was battling for her life. My world crumbled! Again! I rushed to the hospital… I held her hand, tears flowing down my eyes. Would she make it? My friends and family reached too with my daughter. And right before my very eyes, my beloved wife slipped into a COMA…

And yet, I lose again! Fate is at it again… The guiding star of my life was dimming slowly. I hugged my daughter close to me. Her pure and innocent eyes gave me hope. I saw Hope for Hope again…

#PostYourSalute Happy Independence Day

Today is India’s 72nd Independence Day- A proud day for Every Indian. I express it with my salute – to country’s peace and prosperity.

I can proudly say that I am free.
I am not a professional actor.
I am not an aspiring model.
I am just an unknown – #invisibleunknown, like every Indian who helps grow our country day by day.

Happy Independence Day to all those fighters who gave us the free identity and to those who are fighting to protect our freedom and identity.

Tag your friends and tell them to #PostYourSalute

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India’s freedom struggle was a hard-fought one and Independence Day is the day to pledge and to protect the unity and integrity of our country. Independence Day is a national holiday and is celebrated with much fervour across the nation.

India will celebrate its 72nd Independence Day today. For all Indians Independence Day is a day to remember the people who fought the Britishers and gave up their lives to free the country from a foreign ruler.

Feel the pride of being the part of such a glorious nation.